Lord, You have me where you want me

Totally trusting and depending on you

Only You can fight for me now

Only You can see me through

I am tired of the fight

I have fought all my life

I have fought just to live

I have kicked and screamed

And even punched with my fists

I have fought to protect myself

I didn't need anyone to help

I was once so strong, and no

Giant I faced, was too tall

I held myself together, I thought

I could cope with it all

I was brought up, to not shed a tear

To stand firm, and not show my fear

I was taught to hide

And it didn't matter what I felt inside

If I hurt, I buried it down deep

And never wanted anyone to know

That behind my tough exterior

I was very weak

I fought to not fail

I fought to succeed

I am tired now, because

Nothing I have done, has turned out

How I had dreamed

I have fought to be what people wanted me to be

I have tried so hard to smile, and hide

The tears that are raining down inside of me

I have tried to be a good mother, and a good wife

I have tried to make so many changes in my life

I once fought to keep my innocence

I have been fighting just to make my way

Through all this nonsense

I fought to protect the ones I loved

I fought to forget

I fought to get out from beneath

All my shame and regret

I fought to keep my mouth shut,

And tried to be placet and quiet

I tried so hard, to find some

Meaning and purpose to my life

This little fighter, deep down

Is still a child, still the same little girl

Fighting for worth, fighting to be loved

Fighting to just survive in this cruel world

I am tired now Lord, so tired

I can't fight anymore

My strength is gone, and here I sit

Not wanting to go on anymore

And I am trying to ignore, the

Temptation to just quit

I am tired of the fight

Weary, and disappointed

That I have now come to this place

Now, when people see me

They can tell, I have lost this fight

By the look of weariness on my face

It is my own fault, I know

Because I tried to do everything

For so long on my own

I never asked You to help me

In my own pride, I said

"God, I can handle this alone"

I never came to You, when

I needed comforting

And on You, I rarely cast my care

My hand would only reach for You

When I was drowning in despair

When I got to the end of me

When I couldn't go on anymore

That was the time, I'd call for You, and

Needed Your help, Lord

I know, You have allowed me

To come to this place

Where I will understand

That my Strength comes, only

When I am walking in Your Grace

You have the power to do what I cannot do

In my weakness, I find my strength in You

I am tired of the fight, and now, I wave the

White flag, and surrender

I can only go on Lord, if we are in this together

So now I let go, and stand still

And allow you to fight for me

I will allow Your angels, to draw back

The darkness that surrounds me

I will let You be my hero, and my

Mighty Warrior, who will fight for my cause

I am tired of the fight, so now

I will stop fighting and

I will let You fight for me, Lord

K A GRAAF